my lil kohaku lovemailidrk where to start honestly. the moment i started liking kohaku it was always “aww hes super cute” and that view has never changed. ever since that special morning, i’ve just found her adorable, and i remember it so clearly as well, that moment really really sticks out to me, as if it were a turning point for my life.another turning point in my love for kohaku was the moment i truly fell for her, that was back in june 2021 when i woke up and just thought, “my god im in love with him” and have been like that ever since lol..kohaku’s always meant so much to me, she’s always been one of my biggest comforts ever, and she’s always been my favourite character out of every media i love, no one’s ever came close in how much i love her — no one will tbh. i’ve struggled with depression for a long time now, but she’s really helping me nowadays. when i feel suuuper down, i like thinking of her, and she just brings me so much joy and comfort, that it immediately lights up my mood. buying kohaku merch really helps as well, it gives me something to look forward to in the future — like a reason to just carry on sometimes. a lot of the time when my depression gets servere, she’s what keeps me going, without her i’m basically nothing, she means that much to me.in my time as an enstarrie so far, i’ve tried doing stuff to just. show that i’m a “true” kohakuP, but i think a true statement of my passion for her was when sudden death got released. the day the event was released, i returned home from school and spent the next 8 hours non stop grinding for her. to this day, that’s still the fastest i’ve ever completed a tour event, and idk if i’ll ever be able to replicate that again. other examples are my failed attempts at pulling for her 5*s.. i did so many pulls for beehaku and her fs but never got them.. but it’s okay now! i got them both on lovely dates, which makes it even more special (beehaku: 11/11/23, fshaku: 25/12/22) also i started producing kohaku on my source bday (04/01/21) which is also lovely honestly.i’m a bit delusional about her sometimes but i’ve been like this for so long, there’s no hope for me anyways — i’m a lost cause (joke) but yumeshipping is sm fun to me !! and it’s really helped me to get back into drawing, i love drawing myself and drawing us in silly scenarios together, it makes me so happy — and i’m grateful kohaku’s been able to reawake my passion for art. funnily enough, kohaku’s become a turning point in my art style, before i was kinda shit but i’ve really started improving once i started drawing her, and i’m so grateful for that <3umm anyways i didnt realise i wrote so much.. lol.. this is really cringe but it’s genuinely how i feel about her. also this isn’t even everything i have to say about her, but unfortunately for me i am autistic, so i can’t even put my feelings into words most of the time! (it was a struggle just to write this lmfakdksk)i love kohaku so much, i wouldn’t be the person i am today if not for her <3 she’s made such a positive impact on my life, and i’m so thankful to be able to produce and love her

that’s it reallyum

thanks kohaku, i love u so much <3
you’ve made my life so much better